Okay so last year was the pits! I planned on starting a blog and keeping with it since I had so many thoughts I wanted to put down. I think I put too much pressure on myself. This year I am removing that pressure. Am I going to try and eat healthier....yes I am....Am I going to freak out if one day I eat 6 cookies....no I am not.....Am I going to start one exercise habit....yes I am.....Am I going to give up because one week I don't follow that routine...no I am not. This is my life and I have to start living it...not looking back and wondering what if??? No amount of second guessing myself will change anything that has already happened. Is this a new years resolution......oh heck no. That would be adding the pressure back on to myself. I think we spend our lives looking at others and wondering why cant I have that? Oh I am so guilty of that one. Why cant I have my mom to call when I am sad or happy or just bored and wanna talk....why cant I have my daugther to hold and play with......why cant I stay in my 18 year old body.....oh and the list could go on and on. Sitting in my living room looking around me I notice that I am pretty darn lucky. Is life perfect???? Oh heck no. But really who has a perfect life.....your best friend...a movie star...a pastor... Nobody has a prefect life. But I can promise that we all can have a life that is perfect for us. God gave us all the imperfections so that we will always be aware of how lucky we will be one day when we go to heaven and achieve that pefection we all desire. I think the closest we will ever be to perfection is a new born baby.
So with all this said I am going to continue to thank God everyday for the blessings that I see and that I receive. I will enjoy even the most mundane tasks. Because I know one day I will be able to talk to mom again and hold Olivia in my arms....Nothing will ever compare to the promise I have from God of eternal life.
Laurie,
ReplyDeleteYour Mom was and I am very proud of both you and David in the way you approached having Olivia in spite of her diagnosis. You both showed such an uncompromising resolve to love her and care for her in whatever a way she needed. Only through the power of God through His agent the Holy Spirit could you do it so gracefully. Now it is just me to see and appreciate the growth God has done in you guys and I thank God for you two.
Julie and I both pray for you guys and the healing process you are undergoing. May the Lord be praised in all things!
Dad